Sunday 4 October 2009

The final post.

Like I said in the beginning, this blog was for my summer. Although I haven't been very good at updating all the time, I hope it's been somewhat interesting to read. My summer ends tomorrow, it has ended with a week of craploads of research and coursework ='( I thought I would actually talk about what my project was about. During the end of June, Sabah and I embarked on a piece of fieldcourse which lasted 2/5 days of a working week (the other 3 days was classwork). Our initial investigation was on the mounds of a particular meadow ant called Lasius flavus which live in meadows all around Europe. We shaded half of the mounds with egg boxes supported by skewers =P and then we took volume measurements followed by temperature measurements every hour.


Using the results of this and a lot of data analyses, I decided to focus the main discussion on the way that these ants thermoregulate in comparison to other ant species and how their mounds help them succeed in this.

The work was hard, lots of early mornings and long days spent in the field but that's not to say we didn't enjoy it!! We made some friends with the local wildlife:


Another highlight was seeing this very endangered species, The Large Blue (Maculinea arion). Unfortunately, the downside to seeing this was the fact that we have to write up this horrendous hypothesis which I STILL haven't completed!! (The deadline is tomorrow but hey, the day is still young haha). Another downside to this fieldcourse is that the fieldcourse supervisor is just TERRIBLE at providing us with information ¬_¬" and giving us MINIMAL guidance hoping that we can somehow READ HIS MIND *eye roll*.... grrrrrrr....


So yes... that was just a little update of my fieldcourse project. It has been causing me a lot of headache but if I do well in this fieldcourse I will be very very happy! I think I put in a lot of effort into this so... I hope it will pay off!! *fingers crossed*

This is the end of the beginning. Here's to my final year at University, I hope that I will have the most fun this year and that it will be rewarding. It is worth 82% of my final degree, it will be hard, I believe that I can do it if I put my mind to it and also with the support of all my lovely friends =)

I will end this blog with this song: Broken Strings. Last night, I realised that I had this song on repeat for hours. It means a lot to me this song and I really like this duet.

For further blog posts refer to: http://rinnyrin.blogspot.com . If I haven't invited you to read please message me and I will. So long, farewell, auf Wiedersehen, adieu. Adieu, adieu, to yieu and yieu and yieu.... ~_^--Y


Broken strings ft. Nelly Furtado - James Morrison

Let me hold you
For the last time
It's the last chance to feel again
But you broke me
Now I can't feel anything

When I love you
It's so untrue
I can't even convince myself
When I'm speaking
It's the voice of someone else

Oh it tears me up
I tried to hold on but it hurts too much
I tried to forgive but it's not enough
To make it all okay

You can't play our broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real

Oh the truth hurts
And lies worse
I can't like it anymore
And I love you a little less than before

Oh what are we doing
We are turning into dust
Playing house in the ruins of us

Running back through the fire
When there's nothing left to say
It's like chasing the very last train
When it's too late

Oh it tears me up
I tried to hold on but it hurts too much
I tried to forgive but it's not enough
To make it all okay

You can't play our broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real

Oh the truth hurts
And lies worse
I can't like it anymore
And I love you a little less than before

But we're running through the fire
When there's nothing left to say
It's like chasing the very last train
When we both know it's too late

You can't play our broken strings
You can't feel anything
That your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real

Oh the truth hurts
And lies worse
I can't like it anymore
And I love you a little less than before
Oh and I love you a little less than before

Let me hold you for the last time
It's the last change to feel again

Friday 2 October 2009

Science as a religion

I was having this really indepth conversation with Max today about how science can be classified as a religion in the future =P It's weird because I've never thought of it like that... I've never ever doubted in my mind that I want to and WILL become a scientist, just that I never really thought of it in that sense... I will carry on this post later (when cwk is finished) because I have lot of interesting things to say...

In other news, I've had the most horrendous and stressful freshers week ever. Right now I am mentally and physically exhausted. I am deflated and I need a hug, for someone to come along and tell me that everything will be alright just so that I can shoot them down and tell them how fucking unfair this report is and how badly it's affecting me .. I think after I write this I will crawl into bed, roll myself up into a ball, surround myself with my fluffies and just sleep like a log.

I feel like crying but even tears take too much energy to generate and to fall. *sigh*. what. a. week.

Thursday 1 October 2009

ARGHHH

*&%)"&%&""$(&*&*($*(

STUPID
F-ING
COURSEWORK
DRIVING
ME
INSANE
CRAZY
MENTAL
STRESS
FAIL
RESEARCH
ANTS
ANTS
ANTS
DON'T
CARE
ABOUT
STUPID
ANTS
AND
THEIR
STUPID
THERMOREGULATORY
HABITS
>=(



*cries*

My final year at University is going to kill me... actually no, first it will reduce me to a blubbering mess and then it will kill me. *sigh* how am I going to survive?! someone throw me a lifeline please...

Wednesday 30 September 2009

C'est la vie....

Song of the day: Fish Leong - C'est la vie.

Yes I think it's cheating how she only sings one phrase in French but still, I like this song... I've changed Music<3 - CMB's translation a bit...

I've been too lazy to translate anything lately... I think my grasp of the Chinese language is taking a sharp nose dive down *sigh* why is there not enough time in the world?! It's so hard translating chinese into english, it loses it's beauty somehow... I can't seem to find words in english that does chinese words justice.... hmmmm...

Cest la Vie - Fish Leong 梁静茹

C´est la vie
作词:黄婷  作曲:易桀齐/伍冠谚
Lyrics: Huang Ting Composer: Yi Jie Qi/ Wu Guan Yan

Ne laisse pas le temps te décevoir
Don´t let the time disappoint you
ll ne peut être conquis
It can´t be conquered
Dans la tristesse dans la douleur
In the sadness in the pain
Aujourd'hui, demain
Today, tomorrow
Au fil du temps Le temps C'est La Vie
As time goes by the time It´s life


Maybe I´ll meet you again, like the lovely way lovers meet again
Look at the moustachioed smile on your face, as candid and frank as always
C'est La Vie C'est La Vie C'est La Vie


Walking the strangeness of a town, I have arrived and dawn's still not aware of the sunrise
all the way the sky´s smiling full of stars has disappeared in the sunrise
C'est La Vie C'est La Vie C'est La Vie

The Seine flows tears from the heart
every shape flown through your smiles (when it goes it won´t return)
I will, in your memories, see myself
see an end... love in the aftermath will be more cherished


We should go in direction of a new journey , goodbye
(we) agreed we won´t stay for each other
Watching in silence through the car´s window.... I won´t cry
C'est La Vie... C'est La Vie... C'est La Vie


The Seine flows tears from the heart
flown through life's ever flowing scenery
wish us each to have a fine future
a fine longing of love; in the sorrow it is more clear...

Tuesday 29 September 2009

You are not alone.

I couldn't sleep last night, it must be the new surroundings... This morning my body woke me up at stupid-o'clock again and I forced it to sleep more. Gone are the days when I can sleep until midday and still feel tired... this extra bit of sleep that I imposed upon myself has made me feel more lethargic, life is cruel. I'm taking it slow, I don't think I should though... there's a lot of work still left to be and oh so little time to complete it in =(

This is the song of the day... I think it says a lot about what's going on... even though I'm sleeping and resting, my thoughts never rest.



Another day has gone
I'm still all alone
How could this be
You're not here with me
You never said goodbye
Someone tell me why
Did you have to go
And leave my world so cold

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

But you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
But you are not alone

'Lone, 'lone
Why, 'lone

Just the other night
I thought I heard you cry
Asking me to come
And hold you in my arms
I can hear your prayers
Your burdens I will bear
But first I need your hand
Then forever can begin

Everyday I sit and ask myself
How did love slip away
Something whispers in my ear and says
That you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart
For you are not alone

Whisper three words and I'll come runnin'
And girl you know that I'll be there
I'll be there

You are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay
For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though you're far away
I am here to stay

For you are not alone
For I am here with you
Though we're far apart
You're always in my heart

For you are not alone...

Tuesday 22 September 2009

Through the monsoon....

.... just me and you. *sigh* I think I've reached breaking point now.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w6n0h7Xrw-8

Tokio Hotel - Durch den Monsun

I'm staring at a broken door
There's nothing left here anymore
My room is cold, it's making me insane

I've been waitin' here so long
Another moment seems to have come
I see the dark clouds comin' up again

Running through the monsoon
Beyond the world 'til the end of time
Where the rain won't hurt
Fighting the storm into the blue

And when I lose myself I think of you
Together we'll be running somewhere new
Through the monsoon just me and you

A half moon fading from my sight
I see your vision in it's light
But now it's gone and left me so alone

I'll know I have to find you now
Can hear you name and don't know how
Why can't we make this darkness feel like home?

Running through the monsoon
Beyond the world 'til the end of time
Where the rain won't hurt
Fighting the storm into the blue

And when I lose myself I think of you
Together we'll be running somewhere new
And nothing can hold me back from you
Through the monsoon, hey, hey

I'm fighting all this power coming in my way
Let it take me straight to you
I've been running night and day

I'll be with you soon just me and you
We'll be there soon, so soon

Running through the monsoon
Beyond the world 'til the end of time
Where the rain won't hurt
Fighting the storm into the blue

And when I lose myself I think of you
Together we'll be running somewhere new
And nothing can hold me back from you
Through the monsoon

Through the monsoon
Just me and you
Through the monsoon
Just me and you

Thursday 17 September 2009

The worst of the British.....

I think if there was a degree in procrastination then I'd be top of the class. *sigh* This is ridiculous. I haven't revised all week and I'm just at my wit's end about how/where to start all this revision. I ended up just half-heartedly sifting through the papers and hoping that inspiration would come to me and I would snap out of my lazy mood. I feel like just screaming "THIS IS YOUR FUTURE, DO NOT THROW IT AWAY LIKE THIS!" but nothing seems to be working. My mind is seriously preoccupied and I'm not sure what with.... crap as always I would suspect. Pah. I've learnt endless 'new' words which I think if I had studied English properly I would have known. My knowledge of vocabulary is extremely poor but this hasn't really been of a disadvantage to me until I actually found out that I would FAIL 2/3 of my exam if I didn't improve. I think in the long run I will try to improve gradually but in the case of my up and coming exam, it is too little too late. On a side note, why the fuck do we have to take an AUSTRALIAN based knowledge exam?!?! I think the aussies are out to get us.... they just want to prove that us British are stupid and ignorant. Or both.

Song of the day is by JJ Lin. I was obsessed with this song waaaaaaaaaay back in the days when guys and relationships did not take up even a slight proportion of my wandering thoughts which kind of begs the question why on earth was I addicted to this song so much?! anyway, here it is, many of you might've heard it before. What kinda throws me is the fact that there are 3 languages in this song....




사랑해요 只对你说 | Sarang Heyo Only Said to You

It's so long baby. So many hours, so many days.

我心里的这句话,还是想对你说 사랑해요
wo xin li de zhe ju hua, hai shi xiang dui ni shou, sarang heyo
I still want to tell you the words in my heart. Sarang Heyo
FYI: Sarang Heyo means "I love you" in Korean

站在寂寞的舞台上
zhan zai ji mo de wu tai shang
Standing alone on the stage

灯光下拖着自己的影子
deng guang xia tuo zhe zi ji de ying zi
My shadow is casted by the spotlight

音乐重复我们共同的忧伤
ying yue chong fu wo men gong tong de you shang
Our common grief is represented by music

不是每一次的演唱
bu shi mei yi chi de yan chang
It's not everytime that I sing

就可以淡忘明天没有你
jiu ke yi dan wang ming tian mei you ni
Will make me forget that you won't be with me tomorrow

In my heart we’ll never be apart

残留手上的香味提醒我
can liu shou shang de mei wei ti xing wo
The fragrance that you left behind in my hands reminded me

在数位相机里留下的承诺
zai shu wei xiang ji li liu xia de cheng nuo
The promises left behind in the digital camera

每一封简讯传出的思念 都对你说
mei yi feng jian xun chuan chu de si nian dou dui ni shou
Every message that is being sent is telling you

사랑해요 means “I love you”
sarang heyo means I love you

代表着我离不开你
dia biao zhe wo li bu kai ni
Represents that I can't leave you

每分每秒每一个声音
mei fen mei miao mei yi ge sheng ying
Every second, every minute, every sound

只有你撒娇会让我微笑
zhi you ni sa jiao hui rang wo wei xiao
I can only smile when you behave like a little (spoiled) child

사랑해요 只对你说
sarang heyo zhi dui ni suo
Sarang Heyo, only said to you

I will love you, and forevermore

我答应, baby you will see
wo da ying baby you will see
I promise you, baby you will see

每一个我都属于你
mei yi ge wo dou shu yu ni
Every part of me belongs to you